urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:drag_the_waters drag_the_waters drag_the_waters 2004-08-29T04:41:03Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:drag_the_waters:1182 2004-08-29T04:41:03Z 2004-08-29T04:41:03Z Bullet with Butterfly Wings -- Smashing Pumpkins Wow, I forgot I had this journal, Its nice cause I need to vent.<br /><br />I had a panic attack today, I was out riding and then it hit me and I had to stop. Luckily I was by Jason and Aarons so all was calmed by certain things. I got home and my folks weren't home so I sat in my room listening to music flipping a razor blade through my fingers. I've been having bad dreams again and at least one part of the dream has come true or almost come true. I'm getting alittle worried. And the 2 people I know I could talk to about it are gone. I feel like my security blanket is gone. It left once and then I warmed up to another person and finally felt calm again and then it's gone again god damn I feel so lost.<br /><br />I'm starting to crave the alcohol and drugs again. I want it so bad but I've made a promise, that and I know it wont help so I write. Everything I feel goes on a black book on my highest shelf. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:drag_the_waters:841 2004-07-01T04:06:53Z 2004-07-01T04:06:53Z Fuck You -- Damageplan holy hell its been a while i've been in a god plave up until 2 weeks ago when everyhting around me started to hit the fuckin fan. Family friends goddamned I am so fuckin pissed off right now i just want to hit some thing FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK<br />Now where did i put my jack daniels? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:drag_the_waters:571 2004-05-30T13:26:07Z 2004-05-30T13:26:07Z Well I've been in a decent mood as of late. Friday I was kinda down, but nothing picks you up like a trip tp Metro with 2 of the craziest people you know urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:drag_the_waters:318 2004-05-15T01:56:36Z 2004-05-15T01:56:36Z Fuck the World -- Slipknot Well now, thouse of you fortunate enough to get this journal and are my friends be happy, I'm doing a major stock of my friendships and most are ending, I'm tired of the bullshit and the lies, my other journal will probably become dormant everntually.<br />This will more or less be my journal that I only say things I want certain people to hear. That and so I can get away from the other one.